…you’re a single, 25 year-old girl and the person who you have a constant conversation with and who wishes you good morning and good night is a 14 year-old boy. No, I’m not a pedophile, there’s explanations and reasons leading up to this situation! Don’t freak out and call the cops! I’m posting this collection of things that have been on my mind lately mostly because it’s a chance to organize and lay them all out. If my first sentence hadn’t thoroughly disgusted you, read on to hear me out! Continue reading
One of my close friends thought it’d be fun to try online dating, so I thought . . . why not? She’s honestly the sort that was TOTALLY against online dating and she hardly ever tries anything new. For her to actually make an account and start trying out an app to find someone made me realize . . . that I should give this a shot too. At the end of the day, the two of us, including Selene, were totally . . . over this online dating. No more. Continue reading
Since unforgivingathena attended her friend’s surprise proposal, Nyx thought that it’d be a good idea for us to share our ideal proposals. I think as I grow older, my ideal proposal will change but for the time being, this is it. (We’re totally getting ahead of ourselves when none of us even have boyfriends. It’s good to plan ahead right? Yeah, I’m just trying to convince myself that . . . yeah, no.)
Here we go!
I’m sorry that I have been dormant for several months. Real life took over. A lot of things happened, but none of them are related to love. I’ve been doing some re-thinking about my future career values and about life in general. Oh yes, here’s some reflective thinking . . .
It’s okay if you don’t read this. The other writers and I are compiling profiles of our ideal boyfriends for future reference. We’re doing this just for fun, though I think seriously about what kind of guy would be “best” for me before making this list. I want to believe that whoever I end up with shouldn’t be too far from my ideal… since I value my standards, consider them to be mostly (maybe not the “ideals”) realistic, and feel like I’m not likely to settle for that much less (for now at least).
So here we go… my take on Mr. Ideal:
To my dearest of dears (from before I even met you),
My new year’s resolution is to be less optimistic. Or, in today’s language, “gurrrl, let’s be real”.
I complain about being single all the time. It’s come to a point where I use my “singleness” as a conversation starter, joke and excuse. I make it seem as if the world is against me and my desire to be in a relationship. But honestly, I’m single because I choose to be single.
The reality is: I’m not interested in the guys that like me, and the guys that I like don’t like me.
For years, I harbored this pseudo-denial mindset where I proclaimed that no guy has ever been interested in me (but secretly, totally hoping I was on someone’s crush-list somewhere). Now, taking a step back, I’m pretty sure that there were guys who were interested–even if for a short while. I just preferred to play the woe-is-me card than to face the truth. I didn’t want to be “that bitch who thinks she’s too good for him”. So, as soon as I detected interest from someone I wasn’t interested in, I would consciously push him away. And then go back to complaining about my undesirability. Typical.
Yes, I am that bitch who thinks she’s too good for him. Continue reading