You know you’re in a strange/sad situation when…

…you’re a single, 25 year-old girl and the person who you have a constant conversation with and who wishes you good morning and good night is a 14 year-old boy. No, I’m not a pedophile, there’s explanations and reasons leading up to this situation! Don’t freak out and call the cops! I’m posting this collection of things that have been on my mind lately mostly because it’s a chance to organize and lay them all out. If my first sentence hadn’t thoroughly disgusted you, read on to hear me out! Continue reading

As long as he never finds out

I’ve always thought that I was pretty good at hiding my feelings.

From elementary school until now (around 10 years or so), I’ve only been seriously infatuated with 5 guys. Since these guys were all quite popular/charismatic/liked by everyone else, I became very good at suppressing my feelings and keeping my mouth shut. Of course, this passive attitude meant that I could never get the guy. But I was young, had low self esteem and was terrified of rejection.

But I digress. The main point of this post is to lament that my secret crush wasn’t so secret after all.

During highschool, there was one guy who I liked for a really long time. To tell you the truth, I don’t think I’ve ever fully gotten over this crush because I never got proper closure. This was a guy who I had philosophical discussions with, who debated with me about random things, and who I chatted to online almost every single day. I was bitchy and complained a lot but he continued to talk to me regardless. I don’t know about what he felt/thought, but back then I considered him a good friend…And over time I developed a crush on him. Continue reading