Online Dating Discoveries

One of my close friends thought it’d be fun to try online dating, so I thought . . . why not? She’s honestly the sort that was TOTALLY against online dating and she hardly ever tries anything new. For her to actually make an account and start trying out an app to find someone made me realize . . . that I should give this a shot too. At the end of the day, the two of us, including Selene, were totally . . . over this online dating. No more. Continue reading

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Being honest with myself

My new year’s resolution is to be less optimistic. Or, in today’s language, “gurrrl, let’s be real”.

I complain about being single all the time. It’s come to a point where I use my “singleness” as a conversation starter, joke and excuse. I make it seem as if the world is against me and my desire to be in a relationship. But honestly, I’m single because I choose to be single.

The reality is: I’m not interested in the guys that like me, and the guys that I like don’t like me.

For years, I harbored this pseudo-denial mindset where I proclaimed that no guy has ever been interested in me (but secretly, totally hoping I was on someone’s crush-list somewhere). Now, taking a step back, I’m pretty sure that there were guys who were interested–even if for a short while. I just preferred to play the woe-is-me card than to face the truth. I didn’t want to be “that bitch who thinks she’s too good for him”. So, as soon as I detected interest from someone I wasn’t interested in, I would consciously push him away. And then go back to complaining about my undesirability. Typical.

Yes, I am that bitch who thinks she’s too good for him.  Continue reading