Like a firework, he burst into my life

Hello. It’s been awhile, hasn’t it? I would say that nothing’s changed since my last post… over a year ago, but that would be quite a lie.

Since last June I… got my Bachelor of Education, moved to a small town on the other side of Canada where I knew no one, started graduate school, lived in a dorm with 3 of the best housemates in the world, finished my first two terms of grad school, had to reject a guy who didn’t even ask me out on the grounds that he was coming on WAY too strong, experienced a massive snowstorm in April, travelled for a month to Singapore/Japan, hosted/attended my first academic conference… oh, and apparently I’m no longer single. How the heck did that all happen?? Given time constraints and the nature of our blog, I’m only elaborating on the weirdest, most unexpected of all those things today… the not being single part. He’s literally the unexpected firework that came from all the darkness, so humour me as I break down this simile.

Warning: the very last section (short-lived) might be PG13 rather than our usual, G-rated content. Continue reading “Like a firework, he burst into my life”

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The only problem

Hey. Our lives crossed paths a while ago. I was younger. Infatuated with someone else. Yeah. I really wish I could paint a picture of a fairy tale romance, but I can’t. Real life doesn’t work that way.

Actually, real life never worked out the way that I imagined it would. So yes. I did like someone else at that time. You were a surprise, the type of person I’d never expect to meet. It didn’t occur to me then, but it was because you were so sure of what you wanted in life. You are so confident about your life choices, the road that you wanted to take and how to get to your goals. You remain a reflection of everything I wanted to be as a person.

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I own the responsibility. Completely. Utterly. Without Shame.

Well, it’s been a long time since any of us posted. Quick update. We’re all still single.

That’s completely not surprising.

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What we could have been 

It’s the middle of the night,
The lights are gone,
It’s too hot to sleep. 

I stare at my ceiling,
And start counting the stars,
The stars that I cannot see. 

My mind wanders,
And you appear in my mind,
And I know.

I know that it would’ve been difficult,
I know that it is now no longer possible,
But I wonder what we could’ve been. 

The street lights shine,
The silence continues,
I toss and turn.

My defenses have been enabled,
My laughter restored,
There’s still a hole where others can not see.

I try to forget,
I move on,
But I know.

I know that you aren’t the first,
I know you won’t be the last,
So I wonder what we could have been.

We would’ve been equals – standing shoulder to shoulder in the fight of life. 
We would’ve been best friends – listening to the pains of life. 
We would’ve been partners – keeping an eye on each other’s back. 
We would’ve been family – providing a place of shelter and comfort. 

But you. 
You gave up before we even started. 
You didn’t give us a chance to begin. 
You fled at the first alternate option. 
You were a damn coward. 

But I know. 
I know the hurt inside my heart, 
I know the facade outside my soul,
I know that it really wasn’t your fault. 

But it hurts. 

It’s the middle of the night,
The lights are gone,
It’s too hot to sleep. 
So I sit up.. And write a poem about what we could’ve been. 

unforgivingAthena

You know you’re in a strange/sad situation when…

…you’re a single, 25 year-old girl and the person who you have a constant conversation with and who wishes you good morning and good night is a 14 year-old boy. No, I’m not a pedophile, there’s explanations and reasons leading up to this situation! Don’t freak out and call the cops! I’m posting this collection of things that have been on my mind lately mostly because it’s a chance to organize and lay them all out. If my first sentence hadn’t thoroughly disgusted you, read on to hear me out! Continue reading “You know you’re in a strange/sad situation when…”

Online Dating Discoveries

One of my close friends thought it’d be fun to try online dating, so I thought . . . why not? She’s honestly the sort that was TOTALLY against online dating and she hardly ever tries anything new. For her to actually make an account and start trying out an app to find someone made me realize . . . that I should give this a shot too. At the end of the day, the two of us, including Selene, were totally . . . over this online dating. No more. Continue reading “Online Dating Discoveries”